As far as the east is from the west..Really?

In my former life, after 4 years and a child it feels like a different life, I was director of a childrens weekday ministry program at a church in my area. While I was there, i discovered my love for scripture and writing. After leaving I have gotten out of the habit. I have longed since to feel the presence of Christ like I did during my time in the ministry. And I have found myself wondering how I have strayed so far from Christ. At my lowest I had dinner with a friend, she told me to start writting like I had when I was at the church, she said start a blog. I have heard that from several people since. So the good, the bad, and the sinfully ugly is what you will get in my writting. I look forward to getting reaquainted with my heavenly Father and seek healing through this as I write what is on my heart.



Psalm 103:12 As far as the east is from the west, so far has he put our sins from us.



When I say I have strayed away from Christ, I mean I have S-T-R-A-Y-E-D, strayed. I have felt strangled by my sin, I find it hard to forgive myself, and look at myself as worthy to even ask Jesus for forgiveness or a healing in my life. My sin i feel has cost others a great deal in my life, see when I am feeling convicted of something I am the Queen of displaced anger, I can easily take what I'm thinking out on others. Because of my sin its been easy for me to be a stumbling block in my friends walk with christ, for those of you who are reading this, I ask for your forgivenss and ask that we get a chance to chat about it. Its very easy for me to get angry about things around me, family for not being there, "friends" who are believers but haven't seen a sister in christ hurting enough to reach out or even invite to a bible study or thier church or church function, and finally God for his voice not being the loudest voice that I hear right now when I need his answers and touch so much. In all of this the common denominator for my feelings of anger and frustration is SIN and ultimatly FAITH is what will heal me... I need to remember that Jesus died for my sin, "he knew me before I was born", "he knows my comings and my goings". I need to forgive me, because Jesus forgives me, he doesn't want his child to feel defeated, angry or frustrated....I serve a God of mercy and love. I pray that you and I can find Gods grace and mercy.



Psalm 103:12 As far as the east is from the west, so far has he put our sins from us.