Waiting..

Isa 40:31 Yet those who wait for the LORD will gain new strength;

They will mount up with wings like eagles, They will run and not get tired,

They will walk and not become weary.

Its been forever and some Sundays since I have written but what to write hasn't been far from my thoughts. My fingers have been busy doing crafty things...thank you Jesus for the joy you bring me through crafting. To sum up what is going on around me and in me right now is..waiting. Right now I am waiting to see if the howling cold wind will blow in the snow and ice that will keep me from friends and family in Arizona that my heart literally aches to see. I suppose right now everyone can relate to waiting, it is Christmas! Ti's the season for long lines in the mall, waiting to open those pretty presents under the tree. Or maybe for some your heart is waiting to heal. A year ago today, I lost a very important woman in my life and ministry to cancer. I know her family is waiting on their hearts to heal, and waiting for the time that they will be able to pass by her favorite furniture store, this lady LOVED furniture :), and not want to cry. I find myself waiting on a heart and family to heal and answers to whats next. Even though waiting is hard and sometimes painful, I feel like I have to make the most of the waiting period. I have come to find in my life that trials or waiting, have been my time to grow closest to a God that wants to keep me company and be an ever present friend while i am waiting in the "waiting line". I believe in Isiah 40:31, if you are actively praying and pursuing the will of Christ while you are waiting he gives me patience, strength and energy. I feel like when I am not asking my partner in line for his guidance and trying to do things my way, i get frustrated, angry, hurt, sick and defeated. All of these things are NOT what Jesus wants for me, I am his child, he is my fortress and strength. So if you find yourself waiting and hurting, ask God to come stand in the waiting line with you, chit chat with him about the desires of your heart, all the while knowing that when your waiting is over your reward is so sweet. Just like those gifts under your tree!! Thank you God for the blessings you have given me during the waiting.... O (yeah you, good Lord woman), Spiritual Gifts that you use to help heal me and the people I meet because of what you enable me to do, and my precious little girl.

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!
I hope this year instead of waiting on God you will be pursuing a relationship with him!

As far as the east is from the west..Really?

In my former life, after 4 years and a child it feels like a different life, I was director of a childrens weekday ministry program at a church in my area. While I was there, i discovered my love for scripture and writing. After leaving I have gotten out of the habit. I have longed since to feel the presence of Christ like I did during my time in the ministry. And I have found myself wondering how I have strayed so far from Christ. At my lowest I had dinner with a friend, she told me to start writting like I had when I was at the church, she said start a blog. I have heard that from several people since. So the good, the bad, and the sinfully ugly is what you will get in my writting. I look forward to getting reaquainted with my heavenly Father and seek healing through this as I write what is on my heart.



Psalm 103:12 As far as the east is from the west, so far has he put our sins from us.



When I say I have strayed away from Christ, I mean I have S-T-R-A-Y-E-D, strayed. I have felt strangled by my sin, I find it hard to forgive myself, and look at myself as worthy to even ask Jesus for forgiveness or a healing in my life. My sin i feel has cost others a great deal in my life, see when I am feeling convicted of something I am the Queen of displaced anger, I can easily take what I'm thinking out on others. Because of my sin its been easy for me to be a stumbling block in my friends walk with christ, for those of you who are reading this, I ask for your forgivenss and ask that we get a chance to chat about it. Its very easy for me to get angry about things around me, family for not being there, "friends" who are believers but haven't seen a sister in christ hurting enough to reach out or even invite to a bible study or thier church or church function, and finally God for his voice not being the loudest voice that I hear right now when I need his answers and touch so much. In all of this the common denominator for my feelings of anger and frustration is SIN and ultimatly FAITH is what will heal me... I need to remember that Jesus died for my sin, "he knew me before I was born", "he knows my comings and my goings". I need to forgive me, because Jesus forgives me, he doesn't want his child to feel defeated, angry or frustrated....I serve a God of mercy and love. I pray that you and I can find Gods grace and mercy.



Psalm 103:12 As far as the east is from the west, so far has he put our sins from us.