Whats your breaking point......?

"Once in a while it really hits people that they don’t have to experience the world in the way they have been told to." - Alan Keightley

I haven't visited my blog a whole lot as of lately...but those pesky one liner blog topics whinde themselves through my head and heart all the time. so tonight, i reached out, and grabbed one of those one liners. i have decided to let it flow from my fingers and find their way to your mind, and if I'm privileged enough, your hearts.

I grew up a preachers kid, sometimes even as a 32 year old woman I think I'm still growing up as a preachers kid. I find myself struggling between my own thoughts and views on things with how I was told to believe. Its the struggle between these two views that I have found my breaking point.....

I have this really great piece of furniture that I just bought...Its an antique buffet cabinet. I am a person that loves the feel of old things. when I saw this piece I immediately started thinking of a woman being leaned up against the buffet by her husband for a long kiss hello or pulling out the Christmas dishes that had been stored all year. Because this piece of furniture has seen so much since it was created, its taken on a new purpose and form each time its changed hands. The people that I had purchased this piece from decided to paint it off white with a brown top. And as i was placing some of my belongings in this cabinet the other day I noticed a break in the wood in the far back corner of the bottom shelf ...the break in this wood just happened to be the right size for me to slide a plug through so i could plug my all too important ipod dock into the wall behind the cabinet. I had found my perfect cabinets breaking point, but that breaking point wasn't an imperfection or a weakness in the cabinet it was a welcomed break that opened the door into yet another use for this 55 year old cabinet. This cabinet is no longer what it was created to be. In my home, this cabinet is providing a place of entertainment, the TV, wii, DVD player, countless children's DVDs and storage for the ipod dock is now its chosen destiny.

I'm just discovering my breaking point..a new outlook, new perspective on life, love, God and myself...i can appreciate so very much the foundation i was raised with, even though my life started out in one form, doesn't mean I have to see myself as breaking or cracking because I am seeing things differently. I need to be someone that needs to find a new outlook and fresh perspective on life, discover new things, question the things I was taught to believe. I need to discover a Christ that is how I view him and know him not how I am told to view him or know him.

Just like this buffet cabinet was created to store dishes and provide a place for party trays, has now ended up to be an entertainment cabinet....this mind, this body, my soul is at a beautiful breaking point, a point that I'm beginning to find my new purpose.